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Sunday, March 13, 2011
March camp 2011 is totally omg omg omg! OMFG! :/ My sis said nothing like this happened before! Seriously! I'm afraid! Who isnt?
talk about the facts. Okay 1st it's not that I doesn't have initiative, I'm lazy and helping out makes you look damn extra. Second, I did do stuffs but you guys didn't see! How am I in this case not helping?! Hello? I'm honestly damn pissed off yeah you can thank people that didn't do a damn but you didn't even mention it to me. Cool uh? I not human uh? No feelings hor? Fuck sia. It's been like this since primary school since I'm really young, everyone just treat me like a back up. Yeah I can't do anything, yeah I suck at everything yeah all of my subjects suck to the core. No one even knows how much I'm putting in. Everyone has flaws and perfectness but how come everyone treates me like Im just made up of flaws? What I does isn't appreciated. Everyone just says I'm noisy and irritating and rude and I dk what. UNLIKE MY SISTER. Yeah right wenxin is so nice so this so that wenxuan nothing hor? Fuck sia. I hate everyone that knows my very pro sibling's existence not that I don't like them but because I hate the fact that I'm worse than them and I can't accept the fact and all the consistence comparing. Why can't I just be myself? Why can't I not always bother about positions and standards etc. Why? ): I've been trying to be a better person, I've been trying to talk less, to show more respect but what everyone sees is the flaws no one knows how hard I'm trying. My drills suck, it's a fact and I accepted it. For 7 including this year, my drills have always been like this I will try to make it better but i've always been like this. No one knows how serious I am inside, How bad i feel when I can't do the timing correctly, how horrible I feel when people tell me in the face that my timing suck because they can't see how I've been trying. How I've been trying... Everyone is oblivious it's always the same, I wouldn't expect them to change their attitude towards me so I'll stick to the facts. I'll just act like I don't care no matter how much I really do. I wouldn't be jealous at how bias you guys are towards other sec2 I don't actually mind some but I do mind one. One particular person. I don't dislike you but I hate the way you aren't anyway better than us but they dote on you. I hate it to the max.
Friday evening survival cooking - didn't eat anything busy cooking for juniors
Sat morning hike awesome talk with esther on the way. Afternoon drills and gadgets where I hat the seniors. :/
Night was bloody scary. Not elaborating, I'm still afraid. Most afraid night in my entire night.
Sunday all activities was cancelled cleaning up and Manito home at last. 1st time feeling so happy because of it. :D
Overall okay but I guess I was real irritating and Saturday night was the main highlight of everything. Oh no.
That's all. Byes
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March camp 2011 is totally omg omg omg! OMFG! :/ My sis said nothing like this happened before! Seriously! I'm afraid! Who isnt?
talk about the facts. Okay 1st it's not that I doesn't have initiative, I'm lazy and helping out makes you look damn extra. Second, I did do stuffs but you guys didn't see! How am I in this case not helping?! Hello? I'm honestly damn pissed off yeah you can thank people that didn't do a damn but you didn't even mention it to me. Cool uh? I not human uh? No feelings hor? Fuck sia. It's been like this since primary school since I'm really young, everyone just treat me like a back up. Yeah I can't do anything, yeah I suck at everything yeah all of my subjects suck to the core. No one even knows how much I'm putting in. Everyone has flaws and perfectness but how come everyone treates me like Im just made up of flaws? What I does isn't appreciated. Everyone just says I'm noisy and irritating and rude and I dk what. UNLIKE MY SISTER. Yeah right wenxin is so nice so this so that wenxuan nothing hor? Fuck sia. I hate everyone that knows my very pro sibling's existence not that I don't like them but because I hate the fact that I'm worse than them and I can't accept the fact and all the consistence comparing. Why can't I just be myself? Why can't I not always bother about positions and standards etc. Why? ): I've been trying to be a better person, I've been trying to talk less, to show more respect but what everyone sees is the flaws no one knows how hard I'm trying. My drills suck, it's a fact and I accepted it. For 7 including this year, my drills have always been like this I will try to make it better but i've always been like this. No one knows how serious I am inside, How bad i feel when I can't do the timing correctly, how horrible I feel when people tell me in the face that my timing suck because they can't see how I've been trying. How I've been trying... Everyone is oblivious it's always the same, I wouldn't expect them to change their attitude towards me so I'll stick to the facts. I'll just act like I don't care no matter how much I really do. I wouldn't be jealous at how bias you guys are towards other sec2 I don't actually mind some but I do mind one. One particular person. I don't dislike you but I hate the way you aren't anyway better than us but they dote on you. I hate it to the max.
Friday evening survival cooking - didn't eat anything busy cooking for juniors
Sat morning hike awesome talk with esther on the way. Afternoon drills and gadgets where I hat the seniors. :/
Night was bloody scary. Not elaborating, I'm still afraid. Most afraid night in my entire night.
Sunday all activities was cancelled cleaning up and Manito home at last. 1st time feeling so happy because of it. :D
Overall okay but I guess I was real irritating and Saturday night was the main highlight of everything. Oh no.
That's all. Byes
6:30 PM